leftunspoken's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A List of Things I Want I want... To always fall asleep the way I do when I'm exhausted. To always wake up with early light through the window blinds, someone I adore near me, soothed by the sound of their sleep-muffled breathing and little birdies outside the window, knowing there's no place we must rush off to. To be kissed whenever I want. To stay in someone's arms as long as I want...No pulling away. To have someone's lap to sit on, whenever I need to feel safe. To know that someone thinks I am wonderful. (Flawed but wonderful.) To suffer enough to make pleasure sweeter. To remember that suffering is necessary, and believe that it will end. To take pleasure as the gift that it is, without fear of punishment. To have faith in the journey even when the path is unclear. For the world to always look as peaceful as it does the morning after the first heavy snow of winter. For every Christmas to feel the way they did when I was a little girl. To occasionally see myself the way other's see me, just for some perspective. To smell horses and fresh alfalfa and warm leather and rain every day. 11:19 a.m. - November 26, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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